The way
Mar 24, 2017, 11:47p - Poetry
I think
about what it would be like
to not think
the way that I think.
Not thinking about thinking
To just think, straight up.
A trap laid beyond my feet.
Is the sadness of the loss
of the second parent
easier to bear
because of
the loss of the first?
Does sadness vaccinate
against future sadness?
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Tim
- Apr 19, 2017, 12:32p
Ended up here somehow from looking at a chemotaxis simulation you made - because I wanted to make my own and was disappointed that one exactly like I wanted already existed. Didn't know what I expected to see when I got here, but as someone who has been really sad about their parents declining health, it strange to know someone else has wondered in much the same way I did. So thank you for both the science and the introspection. Gotta get back to lab work now.
Kirk
- Aug 17, 2023, 12:51p
Thinking can be a bit overwhelming. I find that when I'm lacking in something I'm thinking of how fixing. I think it is important that as I go on I remember to stress less and try to not put myself in positions to need to stress.ive recently experienced loss. As I'm healing I wonder if I'll ever be whole again. My parents are getting up there wonder how ill feel when they are gone.
Sadness sparks
Mar 24, 2017, 11:12p - Poetry
Sadness sparks
that energy everlasting
a welt of wounds
shallow, deep
compounding
manifesting
creation
that is life
making us be.
Sadness plunges
the soul down
to that home
of sensitivity
conceiving no ills
but them all.
To break through sadness
to mend the tears
that wet separation
only to be chucked back
treading
enclosed
inescapable.
Remembering finality
to resuscitate
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Too close
Jun 28, 2015, 7:29a - Poetry
One lateral move
And I'm in it.
I can now get
From any emotion
To tears
in 5 seconds or less.
The sadness has come this close
That I can reach out
And dip my toe in it.
What started as an empty basin
Has rapidly swelled
From a distant puddle
To a pond the size of a lake
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Empty aging
May 29, 2015, 11:15p - Poetry
Time progresses
as we become
the victims
of empty aging.
We cannot help but spin
propelling the paint of our tears
centripetally out
not to wash but to change
the color of everything
we have seen before.
The photo that brought joy
now induces sorrow
as ignorance gives way.
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Luke
- Feb 2, 2016, 7:45a
I really liked that.
Kirk
- Aug 17, 2023, 12:43p
I'll speak on these later . To close.
Freedom of a death sentence
May 24, 2015, 12:28p - Poetry
You are alone
With your sentence
Though you wish to not be
You dare not
Inflict your fate on others.
For in your loss of loneliness
Would lie an expansion of pain
Far too great
So alone is your fate alone.
"Damned if you do,
and damned if you don't"
You are cornered
But the corner
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Backfire
Dec 31, 2014, 11:40p - Poetry
Sadness
is the pain
of emotion.
Both persist
to effect
their removal.
They are then
unique
as suicidal states,
their appearance
necessitating
their very destruction.
But what
if relief
is not found.
Does the mind
recognize its masochism,
and terminate the interminable?
Or is it insulated
from the effects
of its motivating
power?
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rosa
- Feb 12, 2015, 10:13a
so, i'm not sure that they are unique ... there's a sense in which all motivations/goals/desires are like that. a desire is satisfied when you no longer have it; once a goal is achieved it's no longer relevant.
this guy (teaches at MIT) argues that we need some interminable goals in order to feel like life has meaning/is worth living:
http://quod.lib.umich.edu/cgi/p/pod/dod-idx/midlife-crisis.pdf?c=phimp;idno=3521354.0014.031
nikhil
- Feb 14, 2015, 6:13p
I think you are right. If I think about another emotion, anger, it seems like it exists also to cause its extingushment. I act angry so that others might behave differently, so that I will stop feeling angry at them. Perhaps all negative emotions have this self-destructive drive? Positive emotions, like satisfaction, should motivate the prolonging of their existence, e.g. if I am satisfied, i should keep doing whatever i did to make myself feel satisfied so that i can feel satisfied longer.
So maybe negative emotions should motivate their self-destructive, while postive emotions should motivate their prolonging?
Rain
Dec 29, 2014, 9:22p - Poetry
We were
forced to take
the road
less traveled
into the darkness
and the rain.
I leaned
my head
cold
against the pane;
as water
streaked, then
pooled
we cried
in unison.
Sorrow
without wetness
feels like
Life
without blood.
The emptiness
recedes.
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Liquids
Nov 8, 2014, 6:16p - Poetry
I cry in the shower
Am I crying?
I pee in the sea
Am I peeing?
I cum in the milk
Am I cumming?
These are the liquids
of my life.
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Struck
Nov 6, 2014, 6:11p - Poetry
What does it feel like
to be struck by
lightning
The feeling, the moment,
the time.
What does it feel like
to be struck by lightning
Do your dreams become
more electric
What does it feel like to
be struck by lightning
Does the pain ever end?
Can you go back to
feeling normal again?
Can your synapses forget
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Poem
Dec 6, 2012, 1:40a - Poetry
I'm forced to believe the things I say,
Where is the will, in this way?
Confabulation abounds, disbeliefs sway,
Truth in memory, trust you say.
Trying to be aware the moment I no longer am,
Trying to catch myself, watch myself fall asleep,
Impossible.
(Written April 14, 2007)
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Adam Sanchez
- Dec 7, 2012, 11:50a
Richard Feynman performed many similar experiments on himself. This poem reminds me of him. Thanks.
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